Now I can clearly state that in the past 3 years I have been told I was going to die by some idiot in the medical field numerous times, and here I am still with a healthy heart, lungs, low cholesterol, low blood pressure and clean of all STD's. Not to say I don't have my health issues but hell I'm 44.
The thing I find most interesting about this is I don't have insurance. None of my employers have provided it for me in the last 25 years and I could never afford the $500 a month payment to be self insured, let alone any hefty deductible. At this point I have yet to find any immediate government program for health insurance. Most of them take numerous months to get started (SSI, SSD, Medicaid, other NYS affiliated programs). So I pay out of pocket hoping the doctors will be kind as I await the government to decide if I am eligible.
Personally I am getting by with the assistance of Family and a Close friend. But I wonder strongly about the families out there with no coverage, that are unemployed, that have 3 children and a mortgage. Every time one of them gets ill do they get the "Death Sentence" because they were a smoker, a drinker, improperly nourished, had bulimia or AIDS? I know if you are a drug addict or a super alcoholic you can get immediate attention at numerous government funded rehab centers. So what does this tell us.
Instead of smoking cigarettes you should smoke Crack Cocaine until you need assistance and you will get it immediately. Instead of drinking alcohol in moderation you should drink tons of it so you can get assistance. Instead of keeping your pride and holding your family together you should shop at food pantries with other people down on their luck and hope you don't Botulism or other difficulties. I am not by any means judging anyone, I want to make this very clear.
I did not and still am uncertain about the new health care bill being put into place. If the local governments have a hiring freeze at present (Most do) then there is a question of implementation. If it took me 5 months, my current wait time, to get assistance on Medicaid coverage while I am unemployed I question the ability of the local governments to implement this new program for families that need it and also wonder what the reaction from the medical field will be. I wonder how many people have been told they will die in the next few years unnecessarily just because their doctor couldn't rip off the insurance company. Trust me the first time you hear it from your doctor it changes the way your brain works.
I wanted to end there but need to clarify I think. If your doctor tells you that if you do not stop drinking you will die in 2 years, you drink knowing you will die. If you are told smoking will cause your death in 1 year, you continue to enjoy your smoke. If you are told that fast food will be the death of you in 6 months you will eat it and enjoy it. Why stop your one vice so close to your death sentence if there is no advice given as to fixing the problem? If you knew your car was going to fail in a week with no hopes of repair you would drive the hell out of the thing!
Live well and Be Happy!
My Morning Empowerment exercise! Click here!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
It Makes A Sound Like Thunder
I remember my first crush when I was in Kindergarten, His name was Brian Buzzio. He moved away that first year I was in school and I got a lump in my throat as he got off the bus for the last time. I didn't know why. Being five I didn't understand and have never spoken his name, until now. I wonder sometimes what became of his life, we all have our journeys.
Of course there have been many since Brian. I happened to read an old fable (I guess that's what it would be) And have it quoted below.
"Originally Humans were combined of 4 legs, 4 arms and 2 faces. But Zeus feared them and split them in half, condemning them to spend all eternity looking for their other half to complete them."
Quite a sad but moving story I think. How could the Greek God do such a thing? But then I think again. If the Greek Gods were real and then the business changed hands to the Roman Gods then to the Christian God, maybe no one bothered to change the paper work on that one. So we are all still searching because no one changed the policy.
There is also the theory that we come across our loves in our next life to repair the damage we did the last time around, if you are one to believe in reincarnation. If that's the case I must have been a really good prostitute and have allot to make up for!
I have loved many men and women but gave my heart to one. In someways I watched him ride away on that bus the same as Brian did when I was a child. This time I knew what that lump in my throat was from. So I suppose the question remains for some of us, did we repair what we messed up in our past lives or are we still looking for the part that completes us. Did we in fact get off that bus at the wrong time, or let our friend get off of it instead.
My Morning Empowerment exercise! Click here!
Of course there have been many since Brian. I happened to read an old fable (I guess that's what it would be) And have it quoted below.
"Originally Humans were combined of 4 legs, 4 arms and 2 faces. But Zeus feared them and split them in half, condemning them to spend all eternity looking for their other half to complete them."
Quite a sad but moving story I think. How could the Greek God do such a thing? But then I think again. If the Greek Gods were real and then the business changed hands to the Roman Gods then to the Christian God, maybe no one bothered to change the paper work on that one. So we are all still searching because no one changed the policy.
There is also the theory that we come across our loves in our next life to repair the damage we did the last time around, if you are one to believe in reincarnation. If that's the case I must have been a really good prostitute and have allot to make up for!
I have loved many men and women but gave my heart to one. In someways I watched him ride away on that bus the same as Brian did when I was a child. This time I knew what that lump in my throat was from. So I suppose the question remains for some of us, did we repair what we messed up in our past lives or are we still looking for the part that completes us. Did we in fact get off that bus at the wrong time, or let our friend get off of it instead.
My Morning Empowerment exercise! Click here!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Seeing Clearly
I find this a bit difficult to write about but I believe it is something that needs to be stated for whomever may read my blog. As some of you know I am slowly losing my eyesight. This has shown me thus far many fears and frustrations of losing things I had taken for granted every day. I try to be positive but there are days that I am afraid. My biggest fear is to become a burden on friends and family.
So I write this in regards to "Seeing Clearly" as often times we take our friends, family, and other associations for granted. To be clear I have been blessed with those that surround me and often I don't know how that happened. What did I do that someone would actually give a damn. But there they are, unexpected.
I will make it through this, whether I go sightless or if it is repairable. The point is that none of us should ever allow ourselves to get so wrapped up in our own lives that we forget to thank, to love, to give, to celebrate a birthday, to make that phone call, to give that hug, to a friend or family member. If you can't see you won't be able to do those things via phone or email, and in person as you stumble blindly you will lose your pride.
Value what you have and treat it like a treasure before it is lost. See Clearly in your life before you lose what is right in front of you everyday. I recall the saying "Can't see the forest for the trees" that has a whole new meaning now, especially when you can't really see either one.
My Morning Empowerment exercise! Click here!
So I write this in regards to "Seeing Clearly" as often times we take our friends, family, and other associations for granted. To be clear I have been blessed with those that surround me and often I don't know how that happened. What did I do that someone would actually give a damn. But there they are, unexpected.
I will make it through this, whether I go sightless or if it is repairable. The point is that none of us should ever allow ourselves to get so wrapped up in our own lives that we forget to thank, to love, to give, to celebrate a birthday, to make that phone call, to give that hug, to a friend or family member. If you can't see you won't be able to do those things via phone or email, and in person as you stumble blindly you will lose your pride.
Value what you have and treat it like a treasure before it is lost. See Clearly in your life before you lose what is right in front of you everyday. I recall the saying "Can't see the forest for the trees" that has a whole new meaning now, especially when you can't really see either one.
My Morning Empowerment exercise! Click here!
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